I am apping
when I’m not napping.
and what is a blog
if not a medium
escaping daily tedium
… and now you know why I stick to pilfering my poetry. For the next few months (or however long the fancy takes me) pilfered poetry is migrating. In an effort to recover bogey’s intimacy, I revived her tumblr outpost this week. Also I’m a lapsed essayist and miss dithering. I started tinkering with the architecture of this blog a month ago, only to realise she’s damn near perfect. This is especially true on the ipad, where she’s so exquisite I want to fuck her. I write prose, long and grim though it may be, not “posts”. That is what this space will always be about, and I’m proud of her standards.
Essays, that said, take forever and a day to write. And frequency I could use. Q.E.D.
As for aesthetics, we struggle along. I believe chaosbogey is plenty navigable, even if no one else does. Think of her parts as the variables of an impossible equation. One day, with sufficient magic, I might piece her together. Until then I’m content inventing formulae.
It’s hard explaining how precarious my identity as netizen is. I’m as close to a Luddite as can exist in the digital age. I flail around gadgets. I barely get my laptop to function outside pages and iCal. I plan on whiteboards and cork-boards and paper and think in trig. I read print, being enough of a pedant to want to type up each quote myself.
As the world around me tipped online, as apps and smart phones and tablets and 3G invaded India, I went into hibernation.
There you have it, world. Something new. Now for an old essay that was mostly pilfered in its own right,
Borges & I
Am I these things and the others
Or are there secret keys and difficult algebras
Of which we know nothing?
— Lines that could have been written and lost about 1922.
I began this essay on a wednesday, 24th August, Borges’ 112th birthday. At the time, I was working on another essay, about Kapuściński’s Travels with Herodotus. As it turned out, it was to be Bookslut’s 112th issue, and I can never resist some satisfying symmetry.